Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Pokemon Rom Cheats Silver

Slices of life ... A

stars And here I am:) So
positive day today!
ate a toast at breakfast, an apple for lunch and dinner and a tangerine.
An hour and a half in the gym more than 8 km bike (yes I Pochini but I made them to go to the library xD).
crazy O_o And I'm not hungry.
I also got 7.5 in mathematics that bellooo * _ *! Unfortunately the vote comes
of history will be Friday ç__ç
horrible ... I pray for 5, really xD
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The other day I saw a film "Girl Interrupted" ..
needless to say that I liked a lot.
I think we all subconsciously sick. :)
of jealousy, love, music, dreams, lies ...
Everything! :) __________________


Aaaan ...
not true that I told my mother discovered the guttalax?
.-.
...... We do not comment
look ..
I get home from school and my mom makes me see bottigietta .. practically empty.
I stared at her, seemingly quiet.
She looks worried and says I'm an idiot and that I have psychological problems. The next day I
screams behind the usual things.
That ruined her life and that I'll never get anywhere with my usual "bullshit", which is not dimagrirò and become a hippopotamus.
xD
Consistency zero.
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Tomorrow I go to the mountains with the school ...
Let's hope so! Madonna
those pants make me even fatter: (How
hate the food!

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Then on March 14 there would be a disco party ...
I'd love to go there. .
If I'm going with my friend that the girl will
image ... just good for my self-esteem
xD But I do not care ... it's been so long since I go to a party.
What
I do some shit.
That part of me I'm missing, I want her back.
____________________

I would also like to make peace with that guy ...
I let down too many times.
But I know well the only way to forgive me.
And I can not do it.
Or rather I could ... I do not know if I want.
Even if ...
So I do not ever fall in love, and no one ever will love me.
why bother then?

"Hope is the last to die"

Although I think my only hope is now focusing on calories and ana.
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WISHLIST:
1 - 2
get to 48 kilos - being able to wear on me -.- "
3 - Find a job
4 - stop dependence guttalax
5 - to admit that smoking
6 - able to sing in public
7 - 8
a beautiful bag - a pair of heels from 15 cm
9 - always say yes for a day (except for food muahahah)
10 - become responsible




How To Change Struts On A 2003 Jeep Liberty

later:)

" When you think you have found the perfect balance, you unconsciously lower their guard and are increasing expectations .. that here comes the moment of weakness .. "

NO.


positive day today:).
tonight .. I go back and tell you all- everything!
I like writing
... but now that my mother came home
I do not trust you to stay in the blog ..
A big kiss to all <3

Monday, February 22, 2010

Squash Court Bay Area



I'll try to write all here
day .. and to be taken more stars in your blog:)
However, the results of blood tests should be out today ..
But not yet gone to pick them up. ____________________________________

So ..
Today more or less all right ... nothing Sgarra.

Breakfast: a glass of water with MAG2 (magnesium)
Mid morning: nothing
Lunch: 60 grams of rice with tomato sauce and a small piece of bread ...
Dinner:?

I would rather leave alone all that mountain of stored carbohydrates for lunch -.- "
... but my mother is now returned home to eat: (
course dinner with their parents ... hopefully good!
anyway ... I'm pretty positive
do not know ... But I think this will be the right time.
I can finally do something?
I could no longer bear my curves, too prosperous,
that "dance" during the hours of gymnastics.
Not to mention my legs ... and my round face.
.... I'm really obscene
I am ashamed of myself.
So many words echoed in my head now ...
During school hours, until I go cycling, as I speak, I watch, I laugh.
" Calories, fat, ana, skinny, beautiful, weight, ana, ana, ana, starvation, ana."
'll take that as a good thing ..

______Ci'll never get to a decent weight?




Thursday, February 18, 2010

Frozen Grapes For A Wedding

the summer is coming ...



I'm back after a long, long time.
did not want to disappear like this ...
But I could not write anymore, I did not know what to tell. I felt a
failure. Total.
I finally realized that all this horror is due from me. From my
aspect, from my character, by the fact that I can never achieve something ...
I put it in my head ... and fight.
fight for something that will give me joy despite the pain. I decided to believe
. In me.
For once.
Maybe I will regret ... maybe even tomorrow I can not read these words.
But I groped .
I think I can not think of even the smallest mistake.
wish to see, fix the mirror, and not ashamed.
accept me. Think "we the'm doing."
Will I smile at that reflection and move on.
All I need is ana.
Lei
which I hope you will forgive me for my continued efforts.

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Tomorrow I have a blood test ... I may have a thyroid problem.
How nice right? But
not giving up.
Not now.
And then ....


♥ ♥ ♥
IS CLOSE L 'ESTATE ..
the dream of wearing
shorts
very short ...
has not yet cleared.
♥ ♥ ♥








Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Bad Stomach And Herpes




I did not weigh ... fearful that true? _____________________________


want to lose weight.
Only this ...
I can live with a jar of my feet in height.
I am content in my eyes-brown sucks.
I am content in my face.
But please ... please ..
me lose weight.

not ask her.
six feet tall with long golden hair and blue eyes.
But a girl low fat and ugly.
Who never had a boyfriend. No
ever.
That has never been a sincere person.
friend?
No.
not err ... she wanted them these things.
Oh, if he wanted.
But not finding them, if not false, decided to stake everything on a single goal.
that goal that will give you all ... or even take away the ground from under his feet.

_______________________________

I understand that they are not able to follow a diet by counting calories. : (I decide
not, unfortunately, what I swallow ...
and my plate is not able to view this lousy calories and report back with a digital screen.
However, I started eating only ( so to speak ) for lunch.
And something for dinner just to please my parents. But not always.

YESTERDAY
Breakfast: air
Snack: air
Lunch: salad (lettuce, mozzarella (): coffee with a teaspoon of Dietor.
Guttalax ---->
Snack: air
Dinner: a negligible piece of cauliflower.

TODAY
Breakfast: a glass of ice water
Snack: nothing
Lunch: sandwich with arugula and bresaola .. . (God save our thin
Snack: guttalax
Dinner: hopefully nothing ... but if I continue to say that I have a headache, stomach ache, etc. My mother took me to the doctor .... how do I? (

Today I did gymnastics ... I was not too bad despite not having eaten.:) A kiss

stars <3